Posted by arora on October 29, 2007, at 10:16:28
In reply to so alone...**Trigger**, posted by B2chica on October 29, 2007, at 7:47:46
B2chica-
I know what you mean about it coming in waves... I call my depression The Tsunami, :-<I know it's so hard- the struggle to keep fighting to stay on the surface, but you can do it. You have so much to stay for! Your OH- your baby. They love you. You do matter!
I've been thinking lately about writing everything down- not just to explore why I'm such a mess, but also to put it in cold hard black and white.
I find when I'm really bad, spilling it out onto paper really helps- (kind gross- but you know how when you're feeling sick and finally throw up then you feel better?) It's like that- cleaned out and purged, somehow.
Maybe when it's bad, you could try that? You don't have to keep it- can burn it or something afterwards, but scribbling like mad for 1/2 hour or so is really therapeutic. I look at it afterwards and then I get mad...I think that no one is EVER gonna make me feel like that about myself again! And I draw silly little demons and monsters in the margins- sometimes they are so weird that they make me laugh, even when I'm crying.
If you are at work today, I hope it's better for you than it was last Friday... have a great Monday.arora
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