Posted by pegasus on October 16, 2007, at 11:00:34
In reply to anyone have a cliff??, posted by B2chica on October 16, 2007, at 9:20:11
Oh, B2C, that's terrible. Did you get a chance to explain that you make up the time at the end of the day? 10 minutes seems pretty insignificant, unless you left customers or clients waiting or something. Especially if you make it up later.
I hope you know somewhere inside you that your boss being angry at you doesn't mean that you are worthless. That's just one angry person. Same for your husband not understanding. Just one person who doesn't get it - and he cares about you and loves you too even when he doesn't get it. Even if he sometimes gets frustrated. There are people here who get it, and who value you a lot. And we're more important than your boss. ;)
You are not failing your daughter. You are her mom, the only mom she has, and she needs and benefits from what you do give her. And you are giving it to her, as best as you can. Which is enough. I think it's really easy to feel that because there might be more that other people give, or more that you could give if your situation was different, that you're not good enough. But there is an infinite amount that we *could* theoretically give our kids. None of us are able to give that much. It doesn't mean that we are failures.
What's important is that you are there for her as much as you can be, and mother her as much as you can. And that you love her and let her know it. It's OK to let her see you not getting it right sometimes, and that you are trying to as much as you can. I think I see in your posts that you are doing that.
I'm sorry that it's so hard. I wish I could help. I'm sending you thoughts of strength and energy, and I wish it could help you carry it all a little farther.
peg
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