Posted by Deneb on October 13, 2007, at 23:02:38
I think I know what triggered it, and I don't feel like a very good person because of it.
Hearing about other people's success should make me happy for them, instead often what happens is that I start comparing myself to them and then I start feeling like a loser.
I hate that I think this. I want to feel happy for my friends' successes.
I started thinking of how unsuccessful I am in life tonight and I got really depressed. I almost got to the point of wanting to die. The way I think makes a big difference in my mood.
It just so happened that I also skipped one of my meds today, but then I checked the half-life of it and it's 9 days, so there's no possibility of that affecting my mood.
So it is for sure my thinking that made me depressed. But it wasn't real depression, it was more like a wave of sadness. I'm OK again, but still not happy.
My pdoc told me not to compare myself to other people. I need to work on that.
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