Posted by RealMe on October 10, 2007, at 23:01:37
In reply to Therapy Tuesday a.m. light and then sad too, posted by RealMe on October 10, 2007, at 1:43:47
Thanks everyone; I still have to laugh at how my T was laughing and shaking his head, and saying he couldn't belive it that I would drive myself to the acute care facility and risk death rather than have an ambulence come and get me because that would be so embarrassing. He is in a 12 or so story building, and so when I could not stop laughing either, I said to him, "Well would you want an ambulence to come here and take you away to the hospital; wouldn't you find it embarrassing?" Well of course he did not answer which said to me that yes he would be embarrassed, and this is part of the reason why he could not stop laughing--because he could identify with the feeling.
Otherwise, yes sessions like this do help to bond and to feel more comfortable, and so I try to tell myself it was not a waste, but I know and said to him too that it will be a move closer, back away, move closer, back away situation. It isn't as if we passed some turning point, and he agreed. I have a tendency to freak if I feel closeness too intensely as then I start to feel vulnerable. So, he knows this too, that I will try to push him away again and likely more than once before all is said and done. I just try to keep in mind that when I get angry with him, what is this about--me, him, both of us, none of the above??? So, thanks again to all. It is nice to have others understand and to be able to appreciate what it feels like too.
RealMe
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