Posted by Quintal on October 8, 2007, at 19:23:21
In reply to Re: How do you learn to relax?, posted by rskontos on October 7, 2007, at 19:48:46
That sounds lovely rskontos. I enjoy walking with my dogs in the country too, and it's only in this last year that I've noticed how beautiful it all is. It feels good to be healthy from all that exercise too! I think the one of the most relaxing things though is a hug. I read a quote somewhere that said "If you don't get a hug at least once a week your spine will shrivel up". Hugs boost your self-esteem, and I didn't get enough of them when I was growing up.
I've been wanting to make contact with some of my extended family for a while, but I don't know how to go about it. Tell the truth I suppose, and the truth is that I didn't really trust them, and I think my mother played a part in that. But I know they do really love me, and it hurts to know how much I've hurt them by slamming the door like that, without any explanation. I was just trying to protect myself, but how can you start off a conversation with something like that? Would they be relieved to hear from me? In my heart of hearts I think they would, but I fear that they might reject me.
See Phillipa, so much communication is false. People so often don't say what they really mean, and that throws me off centre for a while. Probably with having so little affection I've wondered all my life what is so terribly wrong with me. The truth is that I have a very different way of looking at the world to most people, and this causes a lot of unexplained conflict. I see why left-handedness has been referred to as 'natural evil' - like a thunderstorm or an Earthquake, a potentially destructive force of nature, rather than moral evil - they are not the same thing. My grandmother once said that I was evil. She said a lot of hurtful things, but I know I'm not really evil. My extended family just didn't understand me, and I didn't really understand them either. I've probed every corner of my mind, and the conclusion I've come to is that the biggest thing I have to fear is my imagination itself. I am pretty level headed, just have to learn to think a little more before acting out.
Well, I feel better for that. Actually, I saw this in a magazine earlier today and it made me feel a bit better too:
http://i125.photobucket.com/albums/p46/Serepham/File0002.jpg(((Babblers)))
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