Posted by happyflower on October 8, 2007, at 15:14:33
What the heck are happy tears? I was just telling him about the good stuff of this week, and I got all teary eyed and he thought something was wrong. I am like no, I am just happy. We both laughed.
I have done a lot of processing of old T and am in a much better place now with it, T said he was proud of me of all the work I did with processing all of this. I still will miss him, and that will just take time to get over, but I don't feel bad about what happened between us, I understand it, and I can accept it. T's are human after all, and I have learned a very good lesson about this. But next week it is back to the "top 10 sh*t list".
I am really freaking out because now the director of the jazz band just emailed me and he wants to do this feature solo this semester! So I have to pick up the music and go through it tonight before rehearsal. Now I have 2 solos, very scary indeed. Can you die from stage frieght? lol My director said being terrified is a good thing! yeah right! Lets see how terrified he will feel when I am up in front to the audience and croak! WOnder if he will feel scared. lol This guy is such a freak, but I like him. But I don't know how I will get throught this.
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