Posted by rskontos on October 8, 2007, at 11:18:14
In reply to Re: Self-Love » pegasus, posted by emily99 on October 8, 2007, at 10:50:02
I think you can do some of those things on automatic pilot too. I do something because I am suppose to and little one has always done that whatever you are suppose to do you do. Eat, be clean, wash behind your ears, dont think about what is doing on, automatic pilot. When you have been told enough negative things about yourself I think self love is hard especially when you are told those things young. When you have certain boundaries crossed as a young child, it is hard to overcome as an adult. (sorry can't spell for spit today, new meds on board)
I found I dont even think about me much. Until now. I just survived. Because that was what is all about and until now I didn't have time to do much else. To have time to think about that you must have the basics of survival out of the way, for me I didn't. So I have never really had the luxury to know me or love me or understand me before I had a family to take care and then of course no time either. Now I must to save myself. So I draw a real blank when I think about it. This is though a very interesting thread. I am only just know trying to nurture myself. I think if I hate myself it is because through the eyes of the adults I knew as a kid I saw things I didn't understand and I thought it was hate and maybe I learned to hate myself. It is hard to understand what you see as a child that should be love but isn't you havent the right tools to understand, conceptulize what you see and then assimulate(sorry cant spell) it based on what you know because you know little. So you think of love or hate, I knew it wasnt love it must be hate. If this adult who should love me doesn't then I must be hateable. The adult in me is sad for the little one I was. I think self appreciation is way up the ladder of self love first then you will appreciate yourself. But I am probably not making much sense. I know what I mean to say but I am too unconnected today. Later......rk
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