Posted by antigua3 on October 4, 2007, at 13:15:50
In reply to Re: Different Take on Integration (long and *csa*, posted by B2chica on October 4, 2007, at 13:06:34
I don't think you're anywhere near there yet. I mean that with no offense, so please don't take any. Your adult has to be in charge, but you're just now dealing with them coming out. Forcing the adult to be in charge without dealing with them first, I think, would be counterproductive.
It's a crisis situation when you feel this way--I certainly did when I felt like I had no control and I leaned on my T pretty heavily. I had to find a way to contain them, so they didn't do impulsive things I felt were out of my ability to control.
So I'd say, in my very limited opinion, you're not ready for integration yet, and when I was "forced" into, I didn't feel comfortable with the outcome for a long time.
Having a child adds a whole new dimension to going to the hospital. If you can hold on with a great deal of help to keep yourself safe, then maybe you don't need to go. If you feel like you're a danger to yourself or your child, go immediately. I think you have a really good sense of yourself by now and you'll know. There is no shame to going, if it's going to help. Don't refuse it arbitrarily, because it may be one of your "alters" trying to control you.
Again, you need to find a way to contain what has spilled out and lean on your T to help you.
Sorry I'm so opinionated, but I want you to be safe.
antigua
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