Posted by rskontos on October 2, 2007, at 17:48:40
In reply to many diff. interpretations of integration exist » B2chica, posted by zenhussy on October 2, 2007, at 15:04:17
Do you think the T's can fully understand it. I am not sure who all is underneath everything. When I tried alone maybe that wasn't smart to access my suppressed memories I hit something that felt like a physical wall. I felt ill for 30 minutes afterward and had to lay down. It was weird. I tried again and wham it happened again. So I realized there is alot down deep I am not aware of and if off limits to me. If I can't access it how can a T? I have lost lots of time in the past so who knows whats in the memory banks. I don't know everything. My sister and I have slowly begun talking to each other and she will tell me something that happened she remembers and I have no recollection of it and I am 10 years older than her so I should remember it if she does. It is almost like I wasn't even there all those years. So thats is why I have been thinking maybe all that is better left alone, not integrated because I think I would have to bring someone up to the surface to get to it and they don't want to play right now that is obvious. So for now if it aint too broke...........and part of me thinks it is for my protection. People in general are iffy........even my family can be iffy. I am not always sure I think T can help unless they have been thru it. But I guess that is wrong..
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