Posted by RealMe on September 23, 2007, at 23:22:39
In reply to i feel like freeze-dried poo, posted by Dory on September 23, 2007, at 13:35:02
Dory
I am so sorry about the pain. I don't think too many people know how it is to be in constant pain and on top of it have the emotional issues too. For me, I sometimes want to cry too and can't.
Went to niece's baby shower, and I could not figure out how to get there. I had to study and study the map, but still I was so disoriented with the directions. This is one of the fine afereffects from ECT done on the right side of my brain. I just started crying in the car, and then I had to pull it together fast as I did not want to have an accident. I should feel good that I got there only 10 minutes late because I missed a turn. But, I had to constantly look at the map. It became clear to me from this and another incident when I got home that my short term memory is not okay as much as I thought, and I reflected on some things from work that I would just make a joke about it to cover. Having a few brains in your head I guess is a blessing. I am feeling really depressed again. This really threw me. I was feeling pretty good and wanted to tell T I didn't need to deal with past stuff. Now, I don't know if I want to; probably need to but who wants to. Like you, Dory, the pain sometimes is more than one can bear. I need to call my neurosurgeon to see what happend with the tests and x-rays. Another aftereffect from ECT--back to spinal pain, constant, wake me up in three hours because of the pain, type of pain. Enough. We need to give ourselves a break, I guess, and just say I needed this, and it is okay.
RealMe
Okay; I hope this goes through. For some reason I had to re-register as the message said something about my email address. Been using the same email address for forever. Whatever. Hope this goes throgh
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