Posted by Quintal on August 28, 2007, at 23:45:15
In reply to Sat closer to my therapist today, posted by RealMe on August 28, 2007, at 21:48:31
My counselor once asked if I wanted to give her a hug at the end of our session, because that's what she did with her supervisor after every session. I'm squirming as I type. I accepted because I didn't want to offend her, or make her feel unacceptable or anything. It made me wonder if she saw how little intimacy and affection I got as a child and wanted to, I don't know, show me how to do it or something? I feel pretty sure she doesn't do this with all her clients. Anyway, it was excruciating because I just couldn't reciprocate, you know? I was so stiff and wooden and embarrassed, which is awful because I really liked her and I'm really grateful for everything she did for me. I hope I didn't hurt her.
I think it has something to do with this nakedness/exposure thing like she once said; it's really, really hard to do this [making gesture of opening her cardigan and exposing breasts] and sit there and naked and defenseless, but we can do that if you want to. This really blew me away, but I never got to the bottom of what she meant by it, but I think I can guess. I just skimmed over all this because I preferred to stay safe and secure in my comfort zone, which I suppose is what she meant.
Q
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