Posted by B2chica on August 23, 2007, at 14:00:58
In reply to i think one of my inner kids..**TRIGGER**, posted by B2chica on August 23, 2007, at 11:40:35
ok, so now i feel EXTRA stupid.
i made the call to T. left a message that barely sounded like English. i had this nice thing written down and started to panic and couldn't read any of it...so i don't even know what i ended up saying.
ANYWAY to make life EVEN better, after i called i started to dissociate....and although i was really fuzzy i think (sometimes i'm not sure if stuff is real or not) but i THINK i called her back-(not as me) and sternly told her to forget message and DON"T call me.
so since this is fresh in my mind i'm pretty sure i really did it even though it doesn't seem too real. but im pretty sure i did.
so what, do i call her YET AGAIN and tell her IF i did leave another message to ignore THAT one and yes call me. or do i just leave it alone and wait for her to call me (incase i didn't really call her that second time), or just so i don't seem like a freggin idiot!
God i HATE THIS...my life feels RUINED!!
i Don't even freaking know what's going on anymore!
and i'm feeling SO scared right now i took two benedryl to hopefully calm me down!
i'm at work and it's now affecting my ability to even get off this chair!
poster:B2chica
thread:778035
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