Posted by slugdoo on July 27, 2007, at 14:39:53
In reply to Feeling so dead and empty inside, posted by slugdoo on July 27, 2007, at 8:11:46
I feel so bad. When my T called he said he didn't have any opening because he just got back from vacation so next week is booked. He said he would keep me in mind if he gets a cancellation. shame sh*t , differnt call I guess.
Then I told him, didn't give him a chance to say good bye, that I feel so overwhelmed, I am just feel so bad, I just want to pull the covers over my head and hide. He then asked if I had plans this weekend, umm. NO He said that would make me feel better if I did something instead of laying around. I told him that doesn't work anymore. He said hang in there. He will call if he gets an opening.
Thats that I guess
I cried all morning over this, I have cried all day, I am so exhausted from crying, my eyes still tear up, they don't get tired.
Then I saw he called me like 3 hours later on my cell phone and home phone, didn't leave a message. DId he get a cancellation? I don't know why he called and didn't leave a message. I was at the doctors so I didn't get the call.
It is so hard to reach out for help and to feel like I am nothing to that person (i know perjection) just makes me feel worse. I just want to quit therapy. I can't take it anymore. I hate my life.
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