Posted by Honore on June 30, 2007, at 9:23:15
In reply to Re: it's interesting... » sunnydays, posted by TherapyGirl on June 30, 2007, at 6:02:07
First of all, congratulations on doing so well, sunny! It's great that you're feeling relatively stable, especially when it hasn't been that way before.
Maybe you're finding that you've made more progress than you'd realized in connecting to your T. Not that there might not be harder days, or harder vacations-- but that some fundamental good connection is really starting to solidify. That's so important.
I often have the experience of being terribly sad and even devastated before my T goes away-- and then feeling so incredibly sad when we say good-bye. Then, after he's gone, I realize that I'm okay. It's the moment of saying good-bye and the fear of what it might symbolize, or begin-- and all the memories of bad losses. But when he goes, I realize I haven't lost him in the old way. He's staying with me-- sometimes more than other times, but in a way that he didn't in the past.
This sounds like that to me. It's a strange thing-- definitely-- but maybe not so uncommon, once that connection has started to grow.
Honore
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