Posted by B2chica on June 26, 2007, at 15:07:16
In reply to Does anyone else believe in the fates?, posted by Dinah on June 25, 2007, at 23:28:46
i don't know that i believe in 'fates' per se but i believe that if i ask for selfish positives that i will get them but also be punished with bad things...
like you say, if i wish for someone to pay attention to me then ex; i'd get the attention from a teacher on nice work, then i'd get beat up from students because of it..
or i'd say how lonely i was and that i just wanted a boy to like me and i got r@ped.i now believe that whenever something really good happens something equally bad happens. if its a little good then only a little bad would happen, but something really good. look out.
the last Really good i got was finding a best friend. he was Wonderful, we grew closer and closer and just as i was realizing what i'd finally found (or had found me) he died. very suddenly.about your saying what you wish and disclaimer...i do the exact same thing. but i've also adjusted how i 'wish' for things, to more negative. lately we're very broke and i'd love a raise at work but cannot ask for one. i wish that my boss would be generous, but i make sure and say that i want to keep this job and if that means no money that i'm fine with that...etc.
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and vwoolf...what you wrote, i probably could sign my name to it.
i view what you are saying as a little different than dinah, but i agree 100% with what you say. but i think this is just a learned behavior like you wrote...it's what we came to expect. just like i learned to expect something really bad after something good happens. it just always did. and i think i sabotage things when i think they are too good cuz it scares me of the 'really bad' thing that could or would happen. sometimes i opt to not be that happy because i don't want to be sad...make sense?
hope feels good to me, but hope has always been intangible to me. when it starts to feel real...i get scared also.
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