Posted by Dory on June 13, 2007, at 21:00:44
In reply to Re: also having a hard time processing, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 13, 2007, at 16:24:56
you are a doll. i found a calming mechanism for the anger i had/have...diverting it to exhaustion and irritation. Works wonders. i just got off work... a short shift even... and i am exhausted and in pain. STupid poepme... ^$^%#%%$ people.. stupid people is what i meant. Did i ever mention that i HATE people? not you people... but people.. people out there doing people things and being f*cking stupid. i smile and make them fele special and all that good sh*t so i can make a living. i was so proud of this sale from the other day, she was so excited and happy about what she bought.. she bought a facny outfit, right downto the bra and jewlery... told the manager how great i was and then today the f*cking hag returned it all.
people suck. why oh f*cking why do i have a job working with people. i'd tather be in some warehouse tagging boxes or something... even in a cube doing paperwork.. ANYTHING except working with oeople. oh f*cking typing!!!!
i have to get up and work early in the morning too...an all day shift. i was supposed to get off at 9 and didn't get out of there untul 1015 - again.
thank you dr llodle for reminding me of good things. good things are nice. i love my dogs more than anything in this world (baby girl has an infection) and btw it was 45lbs :o)
you are like belgian chocolate.
i hate my life.
i'm not makign sense i am so tired. i need more drugs.
i have an agency that wants to help me find a job that i can do.. but it's for disabled peopeke and they focus on mental health... not you know all delayed or anything... so i don't know.. feels like i am cheating or ripping off the system to use that. i don't know. i problay will not go. i was supposed to go today but didn't. i couldn;t work up the nerve. did i mention my ability to deal with people IRL is an act, i can perform it well but not always. i once didn;t leave my house for months unless i absolutely had no chouce. wouldn't answer the phone or anything.
pdoc thinks job is better than that. i don't. i just need the money for stability and pay for T. i am killing myself to pay for T. is it worth it? why am i doing bad sh*t to myself for everyone else/.
sorry Llurp. i love you to death. right now i suck. i am so tired. i bought more daisies.. and now i always think of you when i do. i boguht flowers for the girls at work too.
thank you for the hug... wish it was a real one
((((((((((((lloodle)))))))))))))))
poster:Dory
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