Posted by Dory on June 13, 2007, at 10:03:44
Sorry sleepygirl. Thanks for being there anyway. It's honestly not about you, or anyone here, or babble. It's my life, past and present. i was gonna say something, but it's out of anger and feelings would be hurt (not you) because someone would find it hurtful somehow even though it's about me.
i am worried now about the letters i dropped off. i am worried about the conversation i had with my T. It seems like too big of a leap, for either of us. i think maybe i got over-excited. Now the letter seems too much too soon. i don't know. Then again, i thought about calling him last night because i was so upset. i didn't because i just don't know what the point is after-the-fact really. i mean, once i am calm, then what?
i did tell him in my letter that although i felt i had a definition of trust for myself now, i didn't feel we were there yet. In my definition i don't trust him a lot yet... in fact, it kind of describes the way in which i *don't* trust him. Odd.
i am having med rxns which are messing me up. Crap.
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