Posted by Happyflower on June 13, 2007, at 17:24:57
In reply to can we just pretend no trauma?, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 13, 2007, at 16:58:03
> Shoot, I already told him history of trauma. Can I just get a fresh start, and not tell him history of trauma? I guess I have days when it's not that important to me. Why does it always come back to that? Is my family THAT dysfunctional?
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I think you can pretend that you had no trauma for a while if it helps, but eventually you do have to come to gripes with it. I think pretending it didn't happen to me while growing me up actually helped me survive it. Who wants to live with such a terrible truth?
Then day I realized I was abused and telling myself the truth about what happened was a huge step for me.
> At some point in my session today I felt like I had nothing more to say, it was close to the hour being up, so I just stood up. Do other people do that?No, actually I am clinging onto his leg, begging him to not make me go. LOL Just kidding, but I did tell him today I didn't want to leave and that I was going to have a temper tantrum. LOL
He usually says something to end the session and he stand up after that and I follow like a good puppy. But I have never ended it myself.He tried to cheer me up at the end and threw a nerf ball at me and well, he has bad aim, because it hit me in the boob! He says I need to toughen up, yeah right. I said you don't want to see the tough me. Then he said, oh, yeah, I think I did before and I didn't like it too much! lol
> I just have a "sense" when it's over, but maybe I was a bit preemptive.
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> Avoidant of rehashing old stuff. Do I have to?
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You don't have to do anything Llurpsie, or you can do what you can when you can. Take it easy girl, this is a new T, and you can work at your own pace.About another post were it said you felt like a free spirt. Well I am jelous, because this free spirt happy flower girl want to be let go! Take care!
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