Posted by wishingstar on June 7, 2007, at 14:47:37
In reply to Re: therapy today, x2 » wishingstar, posted by gardenergirl on June 7, 2007, at 13:35:27
> I hope it goes well, wishingstar. I've always been impressed by how invested you are with your therapy. You keep working at it, and I mean that in a good way, despite the difficulties. That shows a commitment to healing and hope. And it sounds like it's been quite difficult to maintain that. Good for you! :)
>*** Thanks gg. I appreciate you saying that. I dont know though.. sometimes I wonder if it's not good therapy I'm committed to, but rather I'm committed to constantly messing myself up and sabotaging to ensure I still get the attention. It's not a conscious thing I'm doing on purpose, but I wonder. Who says I deserve to get exactly what I want out of therapy? I could function without it. I just LIKE it. Ehhhh..... I really do want to feel better though. I want good therapy and I want to feel heard and understood. I'm sure I'm just being dumb and beating myself up for nothing... that's a pattern for me.
Thanks for your well wishes. I always appreciate your thoughts.
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