Posted by jammerlich on May 24, 2007, at 18:56:36
I need help with it, I think. Both things feel awfully bad and I just wonder how others might take them if they heard them from their T.
In session today, we were talking about my teacher friend and an email she sent last week and how she's completely unavailable. My T said something about how sometimes when people are depressed, their friends do what they can and then get to a point where they move away. I heard that it's my fault and I pushed teacher friend away.....because she did a lot and I didn't respond in the right way.
Then, after my session (the second of the week), my stupid soon-to-be-ex dropped what felt like a bombshell in my lap. And I called T to talk about it. She asked if I wanted to try and come in tomorrow. I said I felt bad about coming in so much. She said we wouldn't want to do it all the time because she doesn't want me to feel like I can't take care of things myself, but that sometimes it's OK. I told her I thought I'd pass because I'm afraid of when she'll tell me it's not OK. That just felt really awful for me to hear. I can do things myself....I always have. Is it just best to keep it that way? I guess I've always felt like I err on the side of not letting people help. Perhaps she sees things differently. Whatever the case, I don't think I'll be calling or asking for extra sessions anymore. And maybe it's just time to stop all together.
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