Posted by LittleGirlLost on April 14, 2007, at 22:34:32
In reply to Re: ......sigh..... transference » LittleGirlLost, posted by muffled on April 14, 2007, at 20:26:11
Thanks Muffled... It's helpful to hear of others' experiences. I do have voicemails from her which I've saved, and talking to her helps. Like you, I do have trouble holding on to the connection and believing she exists when I'm not there, but after giving it more thought tonight, I know that there's more to it... a whole bunch of feelings that I'm embarrassed to admit. And they're not even "weird" or anything, well I guess to me they are... I grew up in a family where we didn't talk about or express feelings. So I struggle with giving myself permission to miss her, think about her, or even like her! Maybe this is where the additional pain is coming from? Of course I haven't been able to tell her any of this; it's like my feelings are waaaay ahead of my words.
I just hate that it's so intense; guess it's time to let her in a little, huh?I'm glad you've gotten past it; that gives me hope.
lgl
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