Posted by gazo on April 1, 2007, at 0:20:07
In reply to Saturday update, posted by gazo on March 31, 2007, at 12:41:01
i went to the party and didn't even have a single thing. Big party too. Lots of pot in the air, lots of booze flowing. Rockin. i saw my friend and chatted a bit here and there. then i left stone sober. i am very proud of myself. :o)
i am going to win. i am going to beat this. i have not come so far over the years to turn my life, my mind and my soul over to the people who hurt me years ago. No way No how.
i worked on my letter to my T and it helped. i have to explain to him how terrified i am of trying to connect to those feelings. i want to not do that too soon. i think it would be easier on me once i felt more trust with him. i need to feeel he can help me through it. i am too scared to go there alone.
i am going to will myself to be ok and to be safe. i do not have to relive this, not now, not alone. i am going to will myself to set it aside as i have done for years.
i will win.
poster:gazo
thread:745749
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