Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 15, 2007, at 22:29:37
In reply to Re: Dinah? (Trigger?) » Iwillsurvive, posted by Dinah on March 14, 2007, at 10:35:55
> I think I've given up on change for a while. It was too exhausting me to try. I'm working on sheer survival. One foot in front of the other. Avoiding my mother, doing as much work as I can. Getting frustrated because it seems I work from morning till night, yet am lucky to get in eight hours.
*{{{Dinah}}}
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> I have been watching myself avoid talking about how awful I feel with my therapist. I wake up every morning, fists clenched, thinking about ways to die. It wears off as the day goes on and during the day I'm just so tired I could lie down and sleep forever. All day every day from morning till night I want to call my therapist, but don't, because what really can he do. Then I see him and don't really talk about it at all. I talk about something else entirely. I think I'm thoroughly bored with the topic, and want diversion during therapy. Something that isn't about work or trouble, and that I can look forward to. I vent a bit, but that's it.**Mebbe you need to get more analytical in T, go scientific and see what you guys can come up with. Do the third person thing, and talk as if you talking bout another person. Mebbe you guys can do some problem solving.
I know I said it b4 and forgive me, but mebbe you and T are in a rut. A therapy rut. You've been doing the same old, same old, for a long time, mebbe you need to try something new.
WHAT? you say. :( I don't know, but you could start a thread and see if anyone has ideas...
And you said in another thread that you said to T that he not tender like SD T. But he DOES have milky breasts.....:) or have they gone away? :(
> By all veterinary wisdom, I was fully expecting to only have two dogs at this point, which was kind of scary to me. I haven't had only two dogs since my early teens. But my old ladies are tenacious and fighting off cancer and end stage heart disease, respectively, with a grit that I quite admire. I'm very glad to have them with us, and I must be taking better care of them than I think. I gave the one with heart disease a much needed bath Sunday, and her heart was beating so erratically that I put her in a crate to calm down so she wouldn't run around like a mad thing like they do after a bath, and keel over, as she tends to do when she's excited. Of course, she promptly soiled herself, so now she's calm again I need to bathe her again. :)
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*Ahhh the joys of geriatric dogs! They SO lucky to have you Dinah!> And there are some exciting possibilities with my young dog that gives me hope that she'll live far longer than the vets expected.
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> So I suppose I don't really need a puppy right now anyway.*Well there you go. And mebbe you will get one, but not just right now maybe....sounds like you got plenty to keep you busy NOW!
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