Posted by peddidle on March 5, 2007, at 22:17:57
In reply to Re: Am I depressed? *possible trigger* » peddidle, posted by sunnydays on March 1, 2007, at 21:34:05
> I've wondered similar things, and I don't have a good answer for you. I do remember asking my T once how he could say I was depressed when there were still some times when I could function normally or laugh or something. He said that you don't have to feel awful all the time to be depressed. I kind of think depression is a graded thing. It's not 'you have it or you don't' like cystic fibrosis for example (sorry, my genetics class is on my mind), it's something that can range from mild to severe. Maybe you are just more mildly depressed.
**That's a good point. Even when I was at my worst, I could still function somewhat normally. Like, I didn't really do any schoolwork, but I always went to class. But, sometimes I think, ok, so, I'm not allowed to ever be sad at all? I know that's not true, but sometimes it feels like if I'm even the slightest bit sad with no situational cause, my T (well, maybe not this T, but my previous ones) will say I'm depressed.
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> In any case, take her suggestions for taking care of yourself. They're good suggestions for anyone really, even if they're not depressed. I'm a student and I know how hard it can be to do work and keep up with things. It seems like I can never get enough sleep - I never want to get up. I think something about all that mental work is particularly draining. But try to keep up if you can. It'll reduce your stress levels overall.**That's pretty much what she said. That I'm right at the point where if I start avoiding everything, it'll just make me that much more stressed/depressed, or I can go the other way and do the work, and maybe relieve some of the stress. It was around that time that I started to feel like maybe I was deceiving her. I don't know why, but I starting thinking, OK, I don't really feel that bad.
I know what you mean about the sleep thing, too. I'm usually tired all the time, but I still can't get to bed at a reasonable hour. Then, of course, I can't get up in the morning. This baffles my T, because I don't have any trouble actually falling asleep, I just can't get myself to go to bed.
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> I would encourage you to call and ask her tomorrow if you can see her both Monday and Thursday if you go on Monday. If she says no, your concern about seeing her later in the week is valid. And that anxiety workshop might be good.... :) But if she says you can do both, definitely take it. I don't think it will increase your attachment too much. In fact, since I started going twice a week this past week (and for various reasons have actually been three times in the past week) my attachment seems to have lessened somewhat. There is an added security in seeing them more, so we don't have to wish so much.**Yeah, even just knowing I MIGHT see her today made me not miss her as much. Then I started thinking that maybe I wouldn't be as special to her if she saw me more than her other clients. (I apologize if that came out wrong, I didn't mean to imply anything about your T's feelings towards you.)
I did go to the workshop. I ran into a girl that I had just had class with who was also going, so I kind of just decided to go in with her. I didn't really learn anything I didn't already know, but whatever, it was something to do and it wasn't that boring.
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> Best of luck to you. Now about that sleep... I should get some.
>**Thanks! Sweet dreams!
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