Posted by scentedgarden on March 4, 2007, at 11:35:38
In reply to I'm sorry to everyone for not being around lately., posted by scentedgarden on March 4, 2007, at 11:12:52
she knew I was not coping well with the ending etc... and I had mentioned I was so hurt that I flet like complaining about being emotionally abused... I wasnt trying to threaten her or anyhting i only wanted to try to get the conversation round to seriously addressing the pain i was in, and hopefully she'd lighten up on me with the heavy load of boundary clamping down that she has done since the new year..anyway here's just a few quotes for you from my 4th last sesion ever that i will have wi th her... it toook place on 27 th Feb...( also like to state thAT i had sent her an email on 12 Feb explaining all the hurt i was experiencing and I spent hours and hours writing all through the night...
1) she says she never got the email..!
***so i was upset and burst out crying as i knew the session was mostly wasted as she and i wre unable to be on the same page as she hadnt read what id thought she had read... and i ahd prepared the session from that point of view..***
2) she asked me who she could complain to about my behaviour.. if I was going to complain about her's...
*** I was lost for words***
3) she kindly (Im being sarastic) told me that no oe else would put up with me...
*** what could i say??***
4) she said she is not hurting me... I am hurting myself..!!!
***so its all my fault...that ive been suicidal cos im emotionally F*CKED UP..GEE THATS REASSURING THEN***
5)she said i can pull out all the stops i want.. but she will not callme or write to me in between... saying I'm only looking for attention.
*** I said ur hurting me as you never were like thid before, and i dont deserve this sudden change*** But she wasnt having any of it!!!!
seems her memory is selective and seems to only recall or even make up things to suit herself...
BIG sigh)))) anyway.. i still love her and i dont wish to diss her to anyone... thats not what im doing... I was just reading the post from annie rose about feling hurt and angry, and i though here was a possible similarity...
scented garden
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