Posted by Honore on February 12, 2007, at 10:14:53
In reply to Re: Two short therapy dreams ... » Daisym, posted by annierose on February 11, 2007, at 19:26:38
Hi, annierose. One other thought on rereading this.
You do seem to be avoiding something--- something that would attack you or the therapy, as Daisym says-- maybe that your fear of being needy, or showing this intense need that you talk about, is attacking the therapy..
You see t his patient whom you don't want to look at-- there's something about her that's too hard to see-- by the way, I hate to say this because it's just my personal association, but I've heard that people sometimes call cancern "c"-- and I wonder if it's something about something scary that you also don't want to see.
The dreams seem so much about being on the verge of seeing or recognizing or feeling something.
And I do think that could lead to your getting angry at your T-- and distancing yourself-- temporarily "giving up" on her ability to empathize or connect with your inner experience.
She's asking these aimless question about your RL, not interested in your dreams; she says you're too busy, as if criticizing your life choices; it sounds as if, in this seemingly simple moment in therapy you experienced the claustrophobia of the encapsulated elevator. You are walled off from her, in some way, in that moment from any help--from your T. She can't hear your screaming for help.
Sometimes these "average" moments hold a lot of suppressed emotion. And Ts can participate in acting out emotional scenarios of non-connection, in which they really don't connect-- they're invested enough to become unwitting actors in our internal drama.
You sound as if you could pull away from her; I hope you don't'.
Honore
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