Posted by bent on February 7, 2007, at 15:11:49
I’m upset right now. I had therapy today. It was ok, I didn’t talk about much. The whole five years of my therapy have involved my pushing and pulling the relationship with my T. Some times it's not so bad, sometime it’s severe and painful. It mostly seems to be around a lot of maternal transference issues.
I don’t think I can take it anymore. Almost like I need a break. I have been sitting here crying trying to figure how to let go. I don’t understand why it’s so painful and why it’s so distracting. I am at work right now, I should be working. I have school work to do too. My heart is hurting instead as I try to ‘understand’ how my feelings are so wrapped up in this therapy.
What do you do when it hurts this much? When my next appointment is 8 days away and that feels like a year? When therapy is too distracting and seeming unhealthy? How do I call my T and say I just can’t do this anymore? How do I let go? Will this stop hurting?
Sorry for all the questions. I guess I should have been asking these during my session today instead of stumbling over irrelevant stuff. I wish I could tell her how much I hurt right now.
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