Posted by nychick on February 5, 2007, at 5:57:59
Hello! I came to these boards for help with dealing with my feelings regarding my therapist, I see I am not the only one going thru this THANK GOD! I feel like such an idiot because I am rational, straight chick who has her s**t together for the most part!! Here is the story, I am about to get married to my man of 7 years, and I have been in couples therapy for about 2 months with an almost therapist (she is graduating this spring as a real doc) the therapy is really working for both of us, my man and I simply wanted some pre-marital counseling to work out some issues regarding his pain in the a** family and how we will deal with them, not to mention our bit of an adult/child relationship. (I am your over achiever and he is a laid back, whatever type) Anyhow, he is my best friend and I really want to see us together in the long haul and do, we are to be married in 9 months and we are excited, except that my adorable therapist has awakened something inside me that I am so scared to discuss with my man, let alone her!! She is almost exactly my age and she is sooo damn cute and sweet, and I just want to hug her every time I see her, but I hide my feelings well and no one would ever know I feel this way, especially her. When we are in session, I am totally focused on what I need to be with my man, but when I leave, I find myself really thinking about her all the time. I have also never known myself to be bi- or bi curious or gay, although I have thought about experimenting with a woman lightly in the midst of my cold feet pre wedding. (I told my man that and of course he finds it hot) anyhow, I never honestly can think about a woman sexually with me, I have always loved the sausage, but something about this girl (therapist) is soo different. She is like sexually attractive AND emotionally beautiful all wrapped in one, like if I were to ever fantasize about a TRULY real and complete lesbian relationship it would be with someone like her. I didn't think that existed and as a straight woman, I never thought I would ever "fall" for a woman like it feels like I have, only maybe be attracted to one for a one night fling etc. So, how do I wane my feelings and thoughts for her when we aren't in session?? How do I deal with this?? It has been a bit explored with the 3 of us that she may come to our wedding, which would be great, I would love to be friends with her someday. We end our therapy in May and I am sad but excited at the same time, as since she won't be treating us anymore, there is a possibility of friendship down the road. Then again, I might just be wishfully thinking. Of course the ultimate fantasy would be to explore my attraction for her someday for real, physically, but since I am not the cheating type and she is most likely straight?? probably would never happen. Ok, so HELP!!! How do I deal with these feelings? Do I SAY something to her, to my man? I don't want to quit therapy, I'd rather have her professional help than nothing from her... ?? CONFUSED!! How can this happen to a normal straight chick like me?? I wish we hadn't been assigned such a CUTE gal now!!! But it was beyond our control... she is just soo cute!! AGHH!!!
poster:nychick
thread:729892
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