Posted by happykat on January 26, 2007, at 12:35:00
In reply to confused**trigger?**, posted by muffled on January 25, 2007, at 15:20:46
Muffled,
If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck then it probably is a duck.
There is a reason you don't remember and its not just some weird memory problem because memory doesn't work like that. If you are missing gaps in your childhood its for a good reason. Coupled with the fact that you have other signs/symptoms consistent with trauma then IMO I'd say something probably happened.
The suck part is that you may never know what happened. And that is truly one of the hardest things to deal with. I think I have pieced some of my stuff together but then sometimes I think I'm crazy and what if I'm wrong? I don't know about you but I always feel like some invisible hand clamps down over my mouth when I try to talk about it sometimes or I get the whole brain fog thing going. I know exactly what I want to say driving to her office and the moment I'm there I can't remember a d*mn thing. Defense mechanisms. That's why you don't remember parts of your childhood.
Have you tried doing a history timeline and writing down everything you remember, when the gaps are and correlating them with your symptoms and what triggers you?
It is hard not being able to tell your t. Do you have any memory fragments that she could maybe help you work on putting together. I know its hard and sometimes there aren't even any words at all especially if something happened to you when you were preverbal.
These are 3 excellent books on trauma and how the body and mind store memories:
"Trauma and Recovery"
"Trauma Through A Child's Eyes"
"Waking The Tiger"Be well and Stay safe.
Regards,
happykat
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