Posted by Scentedgarden on January 15, 2007, at 10:04:29
In reply to Re: ever feel like never going back even if its good?, posted by annierose on January 14, 2007, at 22:27:44
***Thankyou for your reply and concern for my situation and your honesty, tuff as it is to take...i know im just a patient, actually i dont know that...I actually believe she has much more feeeling s for me than her others...she does thing s for me she says she would never do for another patient, and she says she makes exceptions with me..and lets things slip...boundaries etc, she even said she'd go for coffee with me if we bumped into each other..so im hurting real bad right now...but i dont think its easy for her either...anyway she prob only said that to make me eel better altho i dont believe that either as she said it way at the beginning years ago when she hardly knew me and i had no feeling s for her at all..
***the more a patient complains the more the patient is seen to be ill or sick... at least that is my experience...and im sick to death with the whole psychological roller coaster...i back off she pursues....she backs off i pursue...who cares anymore..??!!! the relationship is hard as she is ethical and morally sound so she has to be boundarful and thats always going to hurt...both people if they both genuinely care about each other...i know im just her job, and she has been my life for a while so i can see the diff i can see it...it just hurts like agony, and all i fel like doing is never seeing her again...that way i will make some impression on the end, and i will have been able to make her think of me and wonder why it went wrong..
i know i sound like a fool now for saying all this...but ive been struggling with ending this ever since i grew to like her....and its not easy...ive been reading peoples post here on termination for a while..!! and, ... oh whats the use..?
See where that conversation leads you.
****I imagine it will be some well rehearsed jargon i get from her in a conversation like that...no the only way is to say im over her..and just say nothing and get on with getting over it...***im sorry my reply is hectic...plz forgive me, but im getting confused and so on with this in my life each day...
***and i dont know what to do...im sorry for being a pain...to her and to you...thank you for helping me.
scentedgarden
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