Posted by sunnydays on January 4, 2007, at 18:28:05
In reply to Mebbe this is it?, posted by muffled on January 4, 2007, at 15:39:17
> I all wound up somehow.
> Lotsa little things.
> But then I thinking, oh sh*t, I got go to T this Tues. and when we left off, it was cuz that ikid had said what wasn't s'posed to be said. And then there was confusion bout mebbe the T thinks we bad or something. That it gonna change the way she is cuz we gross really.*** You're not gross muffled, any of you. I'm sure of it. ikid can say whatever she wants, it's ok, you and your T are both strong enough to handle it. I don't think your T thinks you're bad at all. I certainly don't think that. And didn't her message say she still thinks about you the same. Good luck.
> And I not seen her since and we all freaking out cuz its a big hairy deal cuz what if she different? Then everything is changed. And mebbe she will never think the same of this body. And the kid wants to see her, and protection wants to scare her off, and i just scared, and I don't want to make an idiot of myself cuz sometimes I get into the wrong mode and can't stop it.
**** It's ok muffled. Your T can handle however you are in therapy. But try to let the kid be as happy seeing her as she can be. I'm sure your T is still the same and still thinks the same as you. Now you sound like ME last night in chat. And that can't be allowed, can it? :) Much better that you relax and let all the parts of muffled try to be as calm and happy as they can, whatever that means for them.
> Mebbe take seoquel again, but then toughie is there lots on seoquel. Toughie can be SUCH an *ss.
**** If seroquel helps, take it, but if it scares you, I would avoid it.
> I dunno, I tried to phone T but choked.
> I wanted to say I didn't want to go to dinky gross office, but go somewhere else or walk or something.
> I don't want to be trapped in dinky office when I so stressed.**** Can you call her back and ask that? It's a very reasonable request. And the worst she'll say is she can't do it. And that would be alright. It won't make her think any different of you.
> But I scared to talk to her on phone. I not so good on the phone.
> In person, when she is there, I usu am calmer, sort of.**** yeah, it's hard for me to talk on the phone too. I get so so nervous when I can't see facial expressions or body language. But can you call her back real quick, just surprise yourself and dial real fast, and ask her?
> I dunno what I trying to say.
> I just lost.
> I think we go trailering for the weekend.
> This will be good.
> Stupid T business stuff sucks.
> Sorry.
> Muffled
>
>**** it's ok muffled. Don't apologize. You're doing great. It's almost time for you to see her, and then you'll know for sure that everything is alright.
sunnydays
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