Posted by muffled on January 4, 2007, at 15:39:17
I all wound up somehow.
Lotsa little things.
But then I thinking, oh sh*t, I got go to T this Tues. and when we left off, it was cuz that ikid had said what wasn't s'posed to be said. And then there was confusion bout mebbe the T thinks we bad or something. That it gonna change the way she is cuz we gross really.
And I not seen her since and we all freaking out cuz its a big hairy deal cuz what if she different? Then everything is changed. And mebbe she will never think the same of this body. And the kid wants to see her, and protection wants to scare her off, and i just scared, and I don't want to make an idiot of myself cuz sometimes I get into the wrong mode and can't stop it.
Mebbe take seoquel again, but then toughie is there lots on seoquel. Toughie can be SUCH an *ss.
I dunno, I tried to phone T but choked.
I wanted to say I didn't want to go to dinky gross office, but go somewhere else or walk or something.
I don't want to be trapped in dinky office when I so stressed.
But I scared to talk to her on phone. I not so good on the phone.
In person, when she is there, I usu am calmer, sort of.
I dunno what I trying to say.
I just lost.
I think we go trailering for the weekend.
This will be good.
Stupid T business stuff sucks.
Sorry.
Muffled
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