Posted by sunnydays on December 7, 2006, at 20:30:01
Therapy is hard lately. My T was trying to challenge some of my thinking the other day, and he was trying to do it gently and so that I didn't feel attacked, but it didn't really help. I don't know how to stop being so sensitive to every little thing. I started crying when he said how could I bring the adult part of me into situations where I react more as a little girl. He picked up that I was feeling criticized and I explained that I was crying because I felt like I wasn't doing therapy good enough.
He then talked about how maybe I'm doing therapy sooo good that part of me is scared about going forward and changing and that's what tells me I'm not doing well enough. But he still wanted me to bring the adult part into the session and see how I could bring it into the crying so I felt more in control.
I don't know. It just feels like I must be doing horribly at this whenever he challenges my thinking a lot like last session. Even when he then points out how much I've grown and how well I am doing, I can't make the other thoughts go away. I mean, I want to act like an adult, but at the same time sometimes it just seems like I want to cry and cry.
Any ideas?
sunnydays
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