Posted by muffled on December 3, 2006, at 21:41:09
In reply to Re: Nuther question ***abuse trigger*** » muffled, posted by sunnydays on December 3, 2006, at 19:26:45
Once I got the emotions, it really started feeling like it was me. I think once you start being able to tolerate the emotions, it will feel more like you.**Yeah, I sort of opposite, I got emotions but no memories. Its crazymaking cuz I don't know WHY on earth I have these crazy emotions? I've never allowed myself to really feel the bad ones. I can't. My security system kicks in and thats that.
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> I do think it is hard looking at pictures of when you were a kid,
and it doesn't feel like I could be the happy kid opening her birthday presents and the kid I remember running away from her mother so she couldn't kick her.***:-( Sorry sunnydays :-( bout your Ma :-(
I have this thing in my head that I had a perfect fairytale childhood........
Part of my prob is that I don't wanto mess with my image. But I have been a bit. Talking to sisters and stuff. But there's nothing THAT bad. I don't understand me.
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> So, I identify a little with your feeling of disconnectedness. It sounds like your mind is protecting you very well. Don't try to rush the process of opening up. You will remember and feel more connected when you are ready. If you try to force it, it could make you really upset.***You SO got that right. I get real crazy when we get too close. Then I goto back off awhile, cuz its just way too crazy in my head. I do stupid things. :-(
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> Wishing you peace, muffled. Wishing us all peace.***EXACTLY. ALL of us peace. I wish for that too SD. Thank you.
Take care,
Muffled
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