Posted by orchid on November 28, 2006, at 20:01:32
In reply to Re: P.S. Daisy » orchid, posted by Daisym on November 28, 2006, at 18:14:35
Yes I can understand that you are not trying to wallow. In fact it takes quite a bit of time and consolation from others to even reach the point where it is ok to not look back. But at some point in the future, when the time is right (you will have a feel for it i think ), remember that healing comes only from positive things, and not by digging further. Whenever I tried to do it prematurely I would always fail. But when the time was right, I knew I had to stop myself from digging further - it was a huge attempt to not let myself focus on negative things even then, but I made up my mind, and it worked.
I didn't work hard to deserve anything. Whatever I got, I think I got only from God's mercy. Before that, howmuchever I tried, I ended up failing miserably.
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> I'm trying not to wallow. I'm just trying to find myself. It is hard to know who you are when your history is a lie and you feel like a complete fake shell. There was a point where I needed to remember everything and talk about it. Now I just want the pain of knowing to go away.
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> I'm glad you found your way and things are better. You are lucky to have your husband's support and to feel a powerful spiritual connection. I know you worked hard to create these things for yourself. Be well.
> Daisy
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