Posted by inimitable on November 26, 2006, at 14:11:36
In reply to Re: horrible, posted by muffled on November 26, 2006, at 13:25:08
you know, i didn't even get to have sex this weekend like planned! i was doing something totally unlike me, and i got excited about having sex with a guy i barely know, because i recently found out that i like sex (if it's with a guy i find attractive), and i didn't even get to have sex. see, i told myself i would hold off on thinking about my problems until after i had tons of unbelievable sex on saturday night (me and this guy talked about it at length!!! and he FORGOT!!!didn't call or email me or anything). so i told myself that on sunday (today) i could think about it all, after i had a little fun on saturday night. but no, of course, like everything else in my life, that had to be scrwede up too.
thank you, by the way, muffled, for replying to my thread. although i was quite depressed to see that no one was responding to my thread, i did tell myself that a lot of people on here have problems of their own that they are dealing with, i was still very happy to see a response! :)
but yeah, i don't know. i haven't felt THIS horrible in all my life i think. i have never thought about suicide so much. or about being locked away in a mental facility, which i think i would enjoy right now. i worry i may be homeless by this time next month, and that scares me. i don't wnat to have t deal with anything, just wnat to stay in this apartment forever, and only allow one person in, my therapist (i am seeing him tomorrow and it's the only bright spot in my life, i can't believe how much i care about him, and i am going to miss him so much when i have to stop seeing him, in a few weeks). anyways i am making thsi too long. thank you for your kind words muffled :)*inimitable
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