Posted by kerria on November 11, 2006, at 17:47:28
In reply to Re: Well, I'm not rejecting you Kerria, » Lindenblüte, posted by Lindenblüte on November 11, 2006, at 14:57:50
Thank you for not rejecting me Li - and your comforting words. Not everyone at the other forum was involved- but mostly everyone- i found that i had some friends who were also upset about what happened.
The problem is inside me- that's why it hurts so much- it's so hard to live in so much confusion and pain. people are angry if i just say that because it sounds like i'm comparing with everyone else and saying that i think that i'm having the worst time compared to everyone else. Whatever i say is misinterpreted to mean something i didn't intend- or maybe a part did intend and i couldn't help it. Then i say i'm ssssorry- but no one hears. They say i don't take responsibility over what my parts say- then i say i'm sorry again - it isn't heard again.
it's so unbelievable- people are so frustrated with me- what if they WERE me and had to live with me 24/7?
i wish there were someone to help- to make it all better- the forum is a support group i had some friends - it made life so much more possible but then so many people became so frustrated with me (i am frustrated too)
i wish someone could make it all better- i need a healing- hearing all the attacks was too triggering and we're hurt already.The thing about taking advice - i DO take it- some parts don't- we're all split in everything and i can't do any more than we're already doing to get better and the struggle is too hard already. T thought i should think about hospital maybe even. i'm such a separated mess.
Why do you think that someone would follow me here to write that me saying i was hurt was hurting her?
my gosh!
Why is he or she trying to tell me that i don't feel hurt by what happened? i should know- that's why i came for support here. i feel so bad that i don't know what to do.
Things aren't so easy at home - either. and we're so so frantically worried about my cat- my closest accepting loving friend. i need her so much to come home. tears.
Thank you Li for writing to me, not rejecting me.Take care,
kerria
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