Posted by wishingstar on November 1, 2006, at 15:04:52
In reply to not knowing how to get through in between sessions, posted by frida on November 1, 2006, at 8:13:56
Hi frida.. I dont think I've ever posted to you before, so hello.
I dont think what you said sounds strange in the least. I can relate so much to how you feel... living session to session. I also count the minutes to see her, and then hold it all together and dont say what I want to say when I'm actually there. We're very similar in that regard I think. It's so frustrating.. I wish I knew the answer.
I'll tell you what I think it's about for me... who knows, maybe something will resonate for you. I think for me, it's about wanting to be cared about. I was neglected (but not abused) growing up, and my entire life I've constantly been seeking to find people who will love me and take care of me like you would a child. I guess I dont want all those things in a literal way, but my little girl inside does. And my T is like my mommy - I just need her all the time. I need her to make me feel like I'm okay. Somehow just being there, having her full attention and interest, seems to fill that hole for me. But it's never enough.
I really dont know what else to say.. just that I understand. It's so painful. A week can feel like an eternity. You're not alone.
poster:wishingstar
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