Posted by Amandafran on October 26, 2006, at 14:11:59
In reply to Re: I need some help, posted by canadagirl on October 25, 2006, at 22:18:24
Does anyone perhaps know of any online communities...(besides this one) that deals strictly with BPD?? I feel like if there is ever a time that i might need hospitalizatoin for a mental illness ...this will be it. I have always pictured myself "going crazy". I know that if I am to go into the psych center that because of my anger/temper/and fear I will give the staff a run for their money...then...I will realize just how "sick" I am. My life seems so unreal to me right now..I dont know if I am coming or going. I need help. NO...what I need is a boyfriend...but yet at the same time who in their right mind would want to be with someone like me? Im too intense for people to handle and yet I long so much to be loved and cared for just like anyone else. Im so lost and scared. I dont want to be "hurt" but at the same time I want to be able to crawl in a hole and hide from the world. I feel that being put in the hospital would "hurt" me. I would feel like the world was against me. I am already jealous of the entire world..all of the "healthy" people...why cant I be "healthy" like them. What makes me so different? What makes me different is the way I see things and interpret things in the world. And yet no amount of medication is going to help me.
I dont know what to do.
poster:Amandafran
thread:697716
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20061026/msgs/697945.html