Posted by Racer on October 22, 2006, at 16:26:39
In reply to Re: Anxiety and obsessions... (*VERY* long) » Racer, posted by Poet on October 22, 2006, at 13:26:30
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> So, my advice is to ignore any new Dxs thrown your way ... In other words trust his meds ideas and ignore that label.It's not the label itself I'm afraid of, though. It's *his reaction* to that label, or maybe his reaction to me after he applies the label.
I just realized something: I'm afraid of something completely beyond my control. I'm afraid of his actions and his reactions to those actions. I guess I'm afraid of not being seen/heard/perceived in all this.
I wonder where that comes from? One would almost think that something like that had occurred in the past, wouldn't one? {rolls eyes} I guess I can be a little slow on the uptake...
Thank you for triggering that insight on my part. I guess I gotta "keep telling myself I'm adequate," huh?
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> You don't have to tell him about your anorexia and fear of weight gain. Just tell him that you gained weight last time on the med and leave it at that.I did tell him the amounts I've gained on the other drugs. I'm afraid, though, that if he finds out through my T or our MC, it's going to affect his willingness to prescribe Ritalin... :-} In fact, it might be part of the reason I hope he does continue to prescribe the Ritalin... I'm not sure about that whole thing...
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> You are not your DX, you are Racer, a unique person and there is nothing wrong with that.
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> PoetNo, can't be much wrong with being Racer, since I seem to have earned a Poetical friend.
But again -- I'm not so much afraid of what the dx is. I do know that I'm not whatever that dx is, truly I know that. It's only that I'm afraid of how I'll be treated based on that dx.
I think I'm also just plain afraid right now. I should probably not answer anyone on this thread, since I think I'm probably only going to succeed in frustrating everyone here beyond limits. Sorry if I've already done that...
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