Posted by kerria on October 15, 2006, at 1:18:48
The past weeks and now are unbelievably hard to live. It feels like we're backed into a corner without a way out and everything is falling apart with each one of my parts.
i used to have a repreive at work- now even the work part is losing it there. People are reacting against us. Family - h is angry- triggering.
i need to have surgery- decision is so hard- no where is safe to recuperate.
T is hurting instead of helping me cope, too busy to schedule, it feels that he's given up and labeled me 'hopeless' and i'm not on his priority list so he doesn't do anything in sessions.
MT
tears. i can't believe my life is so bad now. the pelvic pain is so triggering, the surgery for it is also. and afterwards many people who have it are not better. We have to try - the pain is too bad but it's so hard to be stuck at home, dependant upon everyone when i'm in so much pain. H is angry so much now if i even talk. i feel so trapped. Losing it again.Afraid to go to sleep, afraid to wake up in pain, over and over.
kerria
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