Posted by littleone on September 23, 2006, at 18:27:35
In reply to Defective..., posted by muffled on September 20, 2006, at 22:12:56
> Why in the world is it SO hard to beleive that in our own selves...
> :-(Maybe because we are the only ones who truly see our real selves. We are the only ones privvy to our inner thoughts.
I think that's why therapy is so healing. Another person gets to see the very real deep you and still accepts you and believes you're okay. And not *just* okay, but can point out wonderful things in you and accept all of you, not just the good parts.
Until that happens, we are our only real judge and we are a very harsh judge.
I always think I'm defective and broken inside. The part in me that cares about other people and is interested in other people just doesn't work at all. Like a TV with a broken picture tube. And no one bothers trying to fix a really broken TV. You buy a new one. Throw out the old one. It seems ridiculous to try to fix me when I'm so broken.
It always astonishes me that my T thinks I'm worth fixing. And that I can be fixed.
Learning about my parts has made me feel even more broken. Like I'm actually broken into pieces inside.
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