Posted by vwoolf on September 17, 2006, at 14:15:42
In reply to Re: Psychiatric hospital records, posted by notfred on September 16, 2006, at 13:56:16
Hi notfred, I'm sorry to hear you have also felt so stigmatized. Can you say more about it?
I have felt I can't really trust my thoughts and the fact that I was hospitalized is the proof that I am crazy. It's been a huge secret in my life ever since.
I hope to change this by confronting my past. I started with my mother a few months ago.
I told her about the csa with my father which I had memories of from about the time I was 8 or 9. She reacted by telling me she had found him abusing me when I was two, which shocked me terribly. A few days later she told me she thought I had invented everything, i.e I was crazy, it was all in my head. I was able to keep cool and point out that she had already confirmed what I was saying, and this stopped her in her tracks.
Suddenly everything became very clear to me.
She has always covered up her own weaknesses by making out that I was mad, and I have taken on this role.I now want to clear up what happened in the mental hospital, because to some extent they propagated this view. I am not sure whether it will work or not. We'll see.
Have you tried to confront this stigmatization? I'd love to hear more. If you don't want to write on the board, use Babblemail.
Vee
> I have felt very stigmatized by the experience ever since.
>
> So, how will reviewing your records help with this ?
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