Posted by muffled on September 9, 2006, at 20:50:18
Idon't.
I feel sooooooooooooo stupid, but I just can't seem to get it thru my head.
Its this business of attachment.
So I'll allow as I pretty much trust my T, as much as yu can trust any human being I suppose.
She really did go all out and worked hard to try and gain my trust.
This woman knows more bout me than anyone in the world.
And I reckon I ok with that.
But this is factual stuff.
Once it gets to emotions I not so sure....
I think in some ways I attached to my T, and others not. Part of me RAGES at the concept, part of me trembles in abject fear, part of me dances in anticipation, part of me wants to give my inside little ones what they so want, part of me says NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
And I'm not even sure what *it* is?
Whats the diff. btwn the way we are now, and when the kids get whatever the hell it is that they want?
I'm not sure what it is that would be different?
I think it would only put more pressure on everything?
But my inside kids want something SO bad.
So tons of serious internal conflict.
I'm gonna push past the protectors and let the kids have what they want.....whatever that is????
I AM SO CONFUSED?!
I dunno if this even makes aaany sense whatsoever???
Sigh.
Muffled
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