Posted by happyflower on August 28, 2006, at 4:19:10
In reply to Re: I need my T right now (child abuse triggers) » happyflower, posted by muffled on August 26, 2006, at 0:41:01
>> ***How did you save your dad from being sent to Vietnam?
I overheard my parents talking when I was a child that is why I was conceived to prevent my dad from going to vietnam. This is what my first EMDR memory I was focusing on, and then after EMDR, A LOT of memories can flooding into me. Horrible stuff that I have surpressed. So all my childhood, I felt like I was used, that I really wasn't wanted.
But my T said I was "wanted" even if it was for the wrong reasons, unlike him who was a "surprise" to his parents.Thank you soooo much for what you have written below, it really brought tears to my eyes, actually it make me cry my eyes out. You are so sweet, you really are. You are an amazing person Muffy, I can see that.
I'm so so sorry that your in such a dark place right now.
> All muffy can do, cuz I kinda useless.
> Is I sit beside you HF.
> We both sit.
> We sit and wonder.
> You can cry if you want. I don't mind.
> You can scream and rage if you want, I won't get scared.
> Cuz you my friend, and you ok.
> You ok , you hear me.
> I like you and I sit beside you, and the anger can flow and then run into the earth.
> We can take big cleansing breaths.
> Suck in good air.
> Cuz air is good.
> Blue sky so pretty is good.
> Hugs are good.
> Music is good.
> Friends are good.
> A good burp feels mighty good too.
> So does ice cream.
> Soft cat fur and purrs are good.
> And dog slurps.
> And fluffy clouds.
> Yep, they good too.
> And the smell of popcorn.
> And the warmth of sun on my skin.
> Sigh.
> I wish I was smarter somehow.
> Sorry if I stupid.
> Bye.
> Muffly
>
>
poster:happyflower
thread:680090
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060826/msgs/680743.html