Posted by pegasus on July 20, 2006, at 8:56:30
In reply to Re: Update » pegasus, posted by daisym on July 19, 2006, at 13:10:03
Yes, it's hard when you aren't sure whether it's just you being mentally unstable, or normal life being especially hard to handle. My husband keeps telling me that I'm doing a great job, but then I can see how much extra work with the baby and home he's taking on to give me space to freak out. And I feel guilty about that. And grateful.
I'm really nervous about the meeting tomorrow with my boss and the CEO. I told the CEO that I was worried my boss would dig in on his most recent plan, for fear of looking like a bad leader. Which he pretty much does, however he handles it going forward.
One good thing out of all of this is that 9 different people from around the company have now come to me and offered some form of support and sympathy. These aren't all my particular friends, either. Two of them told me that a lot of people think it would be really bad for the company if I end up quitting. So, that's been really wonderful to hear.
But, yeah, I'm still really shaken up, and having a hard time getting through the days. Not eating much and not sleeping, and shaking a lot, and obsessing about trivial things. But I'll keep doing the crossword puzzles and taking deep breaths, and remembering that if it goes really badly, I can post here and get support, and call my T.
thanks again!
peg
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