Posted by pegasus on July 16, 2006, at 8:15:04
In reply to Job fiasco - falling apart, posted by pegasus on July 14, 2006, at 22:35:20
Wow, I hadn't considered the legal aspects. I just thought they were being incredibly mean. Do I want to sue my employer? Part of me wants the whole company to go down for what they've done to me. But actually, I'd rather just have my normal job back. And anyway, I'm sure the company will survive. No one is expendable.
I loved that job. I was doing really well at it. It's baffling to me that whatever management theory they've developed is more important to them than keeping a successful, experienced, committed, long time employee who is passionate about my work. There are so many ways they could have worked it out so that they'd have had two of us making great contributions to the project.
I'm not sure whether I hope they realize that I'm going to have to leave, or that they really think I'll stay. The former would at least show that they're in touch with the reality of what they've done to me. The latter would mean that maybe I'm really more valuable to them than this makes it seem.
I have an appointment to talk to the CEO on Monday a.m. My plan is to tell him how this unfolded from my persective (he was out of town last week), tell him in detail how I think it was handled extremely poorly, and tell him that I disagree with the decions, and why. Then tell him that I'm devastated, and shocked, and not sure I can make this work although I plan to try my best. Depending on how it goes, I may ask if there is anywhere else in the company that they could offer me a position. It's just so hard to picture staying in that department now.
I think my neocortex is starting to wake up. Daisy thanks so much for reminding me that I was working from my limbic system. Exactly right. Thinking was shut down.
Oh, it just hurts so much. I've lost so much, so suddenly. This was a really special job.
Thanks for your support Daisy, octopus and canadagirl. It means a lot. I need all I can get.
I saw my T Thursday afternoon and again this morning. She's been incredibly helpful. I'm going to call my pdoc ASAP. I doubled my AD dose on Friday, so I'm about to run out anyway. Maybe I can medicate myself into functioning again.
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