Posted by ElaineM on July 9, 2006, at 14:24:39
In reply to Re: the letdown after something ends » ElaineM, posted by muffled on July 8, 2006, at 21:01:37
Thanks Sunny. I'm relatively sure that I'd never accept his money. Though I wouldn't mind being paid for helping out. And I can't help but let my mind wander, and think about tuition and up-grading my degree. But taking money would probably be the least likely thing I'd do.
My parents paid for my education for years. All the courses I had to scrap when I'd get sick. All the money I wasted. They are really mad at me for not being a "normal" adult. Where's the job? Where's the husband? Where's the car?...You know. So they have tons of money but I'd never ask for it ever! I have thought of support groups. I've had tons of experience with them throughout my ED. The hard part is physically getting to them. (My T is the one who takes me to hard appointments)
Muffly, thanks for all your words. Especially what you said about short-term pain, being better than long term. I try and think about it that way. But it's soooo hard, when I feel that I need something, anything, right now to be able to make it to some long-term date. And don't feel as though you're obligated to write. I understand completely that everyone has their own things going on. And I know that you're at least reading, right? ;-)
As far as another T, I just can't think about that right now. I had hoped that I'd have someone from that clinic I went to, listening to me by the time my T goes on vacation at the end of July - that didn't pan out though. Last year, I went through a period where I thought I'd leave him, and I tried to use the forced-distance of his vacation as a spring board. But that didn't last either. And I don't really have anything left inside right now. Maybe in the future I'll try again. I'm more concerned about finding another doctor now anyways.
I hope you're doing okay with all of your own stuff. I care about you too. Both of you. All.
hugs, EL
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