Posted by orchid on June 22, 2006, at 16:13:53
In reply to Re: Am I being too selfish » orchid, posted by B2chica on June 22, 2006, at 13:54:11
Thanks B2C. I don't know if I ever can tell her that. And I think she is too submissive all the time and too meak anyway, and if I say so, she will just say that is allright and will continue to suffer in silence. I can't do it to her. I have to atleast give her the hearing ear and say whatever words of comfort comes to me, no matter what is costs me. But boy, it is costing me too much, and I don't know how I can cope up with it.
And I am not sure if it is because she is my mom, but her being my mom makes it even worse, because I know when I used to hurt, she used to pray to God everyday to take the pain away from me and give it to her. And now my pain has lesseed and she has got her RA and it feels so very guilty, that somehow God granted her wish.
It just makes me feel even more guilty, as if I gave it to her. And it is extremely guilt provoking.
And I am so worried about passing it on to my child too. In fact, my mother in law also has it, from what I suspect, even though she says it is osteo arthritis, and I am so worried of the child inherting it from both side of the family.
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