Posted by crushedout on June 21, 2006, at 15:00:36
In reply to Re: I posted on the substance abuse board » crushedout, posted by Tamar on June 21, 2006, at 4:46:44
Thanks so much for your post, Tamar. It was touching to read it when I woke up this morning. It made me glad I reached out and hopeful that maybe I can find the support I need, somehow, to get better.I do want to fill you in more on what's been going on with me, but it's so much stuff that I find it kind of overwhelming. My life has been pretty intense lately--my career has kind of taken off and I'm making more money than I ever have before. I'm also finding very rewarding creative outlets. And I'm working very hard in therapy (although my therapist thinks I'm working equally hard to sabotage my therapy at the same time, and I think she might be right).
But the drug use is out of control and I have so many things to live for, I don't know why I'm trying to do myself in. It doesn't make sense.
It's hard to write here about substance abuse stuff because I know a lot of the people I know and care about on this site don't identify with my problems and may even judge me negatively for them (even though they may know intellectually that they shouldn't). That's always a problem with drug addiction. There's a lot of stigma attached.
But I posted here anyway because this is where most of my babblefriends hang out, and I do need friends right now.
Anyway, it's really nice to hear from you. Maybe I will send you a babblemail soon?
crushed
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